How did you begin crossdressing?

Something very horrable happened to me and my girl cousin at an overnight.There was an evil religous man. We were very young. After that it was off and on...harder times in life the need came to dress and in public. i did it to hide guilt and fear and later just loved it. I went to pleanty psyc help, gay bars,went though thousands of dollors of clothes and was a year away from the change when I realized I could be happy, know that I wasn't gay, and that it was ok to need to feel like a woman, to like the way some looked and to be ok to want that...and let it go.